My Name is Haley

Hello, my name is Haley. What a boring opening for this thing, huh? Well I'm not very good at introductions but feel like starting out with why I am creating this blog in the first place (I've never been much of a person to share my thoughts and feelings, after all). I'm a nineteen year old young woman who has been battling depression since my days in middle school. As time has gone on things have only seemed to go down hill even though on the outside I'm quite good at keeping it a secret, which it has been for all of these years both from friends and family members. Of course, they may know of it but if they are aware then I have been completely unaware of this as I like to keep it on the down low since I don't exactly like people feeling bad for me since I personally feel that it is a flaw in me (this depression, that is). Now this blog is not going to be about all of the negative things that I can point out (unless I'm having a bad day maybe?) or about how much I may loathe myself. In fact, the reason that I am making this is the complete opposite of that. As the title of this blog suggests, I am hoping to once again find the real, happy me. I don't know what to do with myself anymore and that part of me that I feel really is me feels as though it is breaking apart. I can no longer keep it all inside of me in fear that I may one day do something that I will regret doing. I am hoping that this can be a small step for me on my quest to heal myself and hopefully others too one day who are battling with this. Even though I may never know some of the people who stumble upon this I hope that by sharing my thoughts and writing about the things I enoy in my life for the world to see will help remind me of how much this life really does mean to me and help me become the person that I would like to one day be. And that person will be depression free.

"Not only is another world possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing."

- Arundhati Roy -